so it's that time of the year... where i don't want to do things anymore. where i just want to give up & run away from my problems. i always run away from my problems. looking them in the eye is too painful. but for the first time, some problems have arised & i haven't ran away.
my current problem: my health care paper for english 312...
i don't want to do it. i don't know enough to do it. i don't care enough to do it.
& yet, it must be done.

life is like that sometimes... problems come & i just don't want to deal with them. a problem can always be seen as a new opportunities. opportunities come & i do want to take them. but this opportunity... it's too risky to take. i owe it to myself to hold back & to stay in the state that i am currently in. things get overcomplicated & even though that's how life is, i like the way i am now. i'm in pain, but pain is weakness leaving the body & i will rise from the ashes :) i'm looking this problem in the eye & i'm not afraid.

i love how i just rant from thing to thing. & i never really make any sense whatsoever. but that's just how i am.